Depression is like a heaviness that you can’t ever escape. It crushes down on you, making even the smallest things like tying your shoes or chewing on toast seem like a twenty- mile hike uphill. Depression is a part of you; it’s in your bones and your blood. If I know anything about it, this is what I know: It’s impossible to escape.
Review originally published on Goodreads – July 11, 2018.
I’m back here in Goodreads after 2 to 3 years, I’m not sure. I’ve been stuck in the world of fan fiction (AO3).. that I’ve forgotten how much I loved other books, too. Now, I promise to myself to read fiction and fanfiction alternately.
Anyway, TRIGGER WARNING: THIS BOOK IS ABOUT SUICIDE. And not just suicide.. Sometimes the protagonist, Aysel, has thoughts that are so dark and heavy and real- thoughts that might be too much for some.
I loved how this book portrayed depression. It’s enlightening for me. I had a deeper understanding of what it feels like for someone who suffers from it. I love that it was ended full of hope for the main characters.
On a lighter note, the science nerd in me was really happy with how the author used physics in most of her points.
I was not expecting for this book to take on a romance twist. It was not really heavily important in the plot. It actually killed the main plot of the book for me.
This book actually had the potential to be one of the best books that tackled suicide/death/depression for me. Maybe on the first half of it. It’s the resolution and ending of the book that bothered me.
I think there was a misguided focus on the romance part towards the end, that closure with her family, especially her half siblings was forgotten. I felt like there needed to be closure as their relationship is one of the heaviest influences in her decision.
I guess, really, we should stop romanticizing death, depression and suicide. After all, love is not a cure-all.
Despite that, I’m happy that this was my first book back. I’d love to read more of her work.
3 KINETIC STARS! ⭐⭐⭐⭐